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[Friday
November 25th, 2005
2:13pm
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NEW LIVEJOURNAL. FINALLY.



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November 25th, 2005
2:13pm
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[Wednesday
October 26th, 2005
6:42pm
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i talk too much.
about a lot of things.
but, mike imparticular.

stop me please.

im hating the play. im so over rehersals and my lameo scene and how im such a downer and just think about all the people i hate in the play and how i hate that i cant enjoy rehersals or anything like you guys. its just blah. i dont know. its not a 'you-guys-are-leaving-me-out-all-the-time-so-im-gonna-bitch-about-it' thing, because youre not.
i just suck at having fun.

i hate mr. scott. this man will be the death of me. or ill be the death of him. today he yelled at us for asking questions and then screamed that he couldnt deal with us today, and put in a movie. then we asked questions about the movie and he yelled at us again.
i mean hello, how do you expect us to understand the 'incredibly deep meanings' that you dig out of every fricking sentence if you wont say anything about it.
srsly, he can fall off a cliff.
immediatley.

which of you guys are doing model un? and whats your country? and have any of you done it before?

i really need some more clothes. but i dont have any money. well no, i do. i have like eighty five dollars which is a ridiculous amount because i dont even know how i aquired it all and i dont even know what to spend it on. i want an ipod. but im getting one for christmas. and as much as i want it now, i can wait. because id still need another 2987923 dollars to get one. idk. ill buy julian some socks. and tie-dye. and then he can wear the socks and teach me how to tie-dye. sound good?

alex really needs to have us over to his house. because i really want to go in his hot tub. and eat his food. and play in his movie room. and wrestle on the front lawn. blah blah blah, all that good stuff.

so wes and i arent doing a duet. ive known for a while now that it wasnt going to happen but it just sucks. yeah.

i have a headache.

ONE WEEK TIL LAURENS BIRTHDAY!!!
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[Saturday
September 3rd, 2005
9:04am
]

Happy Birthday Andrew Ross McMahon.

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[Friday
January 28th, 2005
7:11pm
]
[ mood | SO EXCITED!!!(wat an ugly face ]

TWENTY-FOUR HOURS FROM NOW, THEY WILL HAVE JUST OPENED THE DOOR TO FREEBIRDS.OMG. OTHER THEN BRITTANY AND LAUREN, YOU GUYS JUST LIKE HAVE NO IDEA HOW INCREDIBLY EXCITED I AM. O.M.G. THIS IS SOOOOOOOO CRAZYYY. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

 

anyways--today is brittanys birthday. i love her so much. shes like, my other half i believe. and so is lauren. both my other halves. our posters rockkkkkkkkkkkked. yes. yes they did.

 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! TOMORROW!!!!!! IT JUST KEEPS LIKE HITTING ME OVER AND OVER AND OVERRRRRRRRRRR!!!!HAHA, LOOKIE AT THIS--

x bleed for days: I know!!! Every time i think about it it hits me like you running into that parked car

i swear shes the best.

one little part about today sucked though. i was on the bus this morning (geez, so much happens in my head when im on hte bus.) and i was thinking and i kinda realized taht like if mackenzie broke up with myles i wouldnt be able to go out with him, because id feel second best to mackenzie. and if myles broke up with her, id feel like i was betraying mackenzie. and then theres always the fact that myles would never even like me too. ugh. what poop.

 

 

BUT FIVE HOURS!!! NO, FOUR AND A HALF!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

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[Wednesday
January 19th, 2005
10:07pm
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sorry all. friends only. asked to be added.

 

                                [protected post]

 

real update soon to follow.

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[Thursday
December 30th, 2004
9:51pm
]
You scored as Ecstacy. Love, sex, parties, and DANCING! Just be wary of your mood coming down! www.dancesafe.org

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Cocaine

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Marijuana

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Mushrooms

50%

Inhalents

38%

Alcohol

25%

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[Wednesday
December 29th, 2004
8:02pm
]
my mom said yesssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYA! im sttttttttttoked.
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[Wednesday
December 29th, 2004
5:25pm
]
<==== jon heder (the boy on the right) is my flippin hero. (bad picture. but i couldnt get this rrrrreeallllllllllly good one in.)
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[Wednesday
December 29th, 2004
4:57pm
]
[ mood | lazy ]

hey guys--something corporate concert in a month. =]]]] im soo stoked.

brittanys was v.v.v.v. much fun. i llllllllllllooooveeeeeeeeee napoleon dynamite passionatley. gosh! oh boy.

the aviator sucked though. poooooooooooooooop.

but julians back! yay! and hopefully i can go bowling tonight. thatd be fun.

oh, and my mom was v. positive in her maybe for having a new years eve party. hope it works out. ill ask her again later.

i got the tyler hilton cd. yes! and a bunch of copies of cds from brittany. v. cool.

anyways---i rock. im tired. annnnnnnd i miss kaitlin and lauren. they need to come bacccccckkk. poop. later hotties.

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[Sunday
December 26th, 2004
5:15pm
]
[ mood | fine. ]

hey guys--my friend kayla up in virginia made this survey on her xanga and wanted me to put it in mine and have people do it so shed feel important. lol. so do it guys. =]


WOULD YOU (INSERT QUESTION HERE) FOR $51 BILLION—
1.stick your head in an elephants butt—yes
2.kill a convicted murderer on death row—no
3.have sex with 50 different (disease free) people—no
4.have “gay sex” with a gay person of the same sex as you—hmm, if she was hott
5.lose your sense of smell (but not sense of taste)—no
6.go a full year without bathing (you have to go out of the house)—yes
7.never have sex for your whole life—No.
8.give up your true love (when you find them)—No.
9.never have any contact with your family for the rest of your life—no
10.only eat one meal (anything you want, and please specify) for the rest of your life—no

HAVE YOU EVER—
1.kissed a boy—yes
2.kissed a girl—on the cheek
3.streaked—no
4.had a boy(if your a girl) or girl (if your a boy) sleep over—no.but maybe for my birthday guys, im working on having an everybody sleep over in the backyard in this gianormus tent we have. yay or nay?
5.had sex (oral, or regular)—no
6.been on the other side of the equator—yes
7.seen a psychiatrist—no
8.gone two weeks without showering or bathing—when i was little. i did it all the time
9.stayed up for twenty four hours straight— reaaaaaaaallly close a few nights ago. i was an hour away. grrrr
10.loved someone romantically—yes


HOW MANY--
1.boyfriend/girlfriends have you had--5
2.boys have you kissed--errr...zes plus vier
3.girls have you kissed--on the cheek? like five or something
4.sex partners have you had--none
5.times have you gotten drunk--none
6.times have you gotten high--none
7.times have you been caught 'doing something'--like two or three
8.bases have you gotten to (1st-french, 2nd-feel, 3rd-finger, home- fuck)--
9.times a month do u go to church—umm, like none. ecept youth group
10.servings of fruits and veggies do u eat each day—like one and a half



hope all of you guys had a really good christmas. i miss you all. lets get together for new years, cuz were all gonna need someone to kiss at midnight. right?

=]

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[Wednesday
December 22nd, 2004
8:56pm
]
[ mood | calm ]

hello again. ive missed you guys. i havent seen most of you since sunday, and some of you its been shorter or longer. anyways--

ive been really bored this break so far. but kel slept over last night. which was fun cuz we talked for like an hour or two about the house we really really really REALLY want to make in md. ya that was fun. than k made a lj the next morning. it was good fun. check hers out. ====>

newshinycrayons

and than for dinner my fam and i went out, but surprise surprise! we brought austin. that was fun. ive missed just hanging out with that kid and being able to talk and goof off and such. and movies just dont cut it. cuz you spend the whole time watching the movie and than at cruisers and stuff everyones there so everyone kinda always one-ups each other in being funny, and fun, and a dork, etc. (me too, im not bashing you guys) so just getting to hang with austin for a couple of hours was fun. (you know u had a good time. i just rock like that)(oh and that bracelet and the necklace are flippin aWeeeesome. i super duper heart them. thanks a bunch. and the shirt looks reaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllly hott.=])

right--so nobodys home. ecept for austin and i. all of you guys are either at clares or julians or w/e. sometimes i wish id get to go play with you guys. and i know you guys say i always can, but i dont always fit. but hey, im really good off over here too. love you guys anyways.

ok--i need to get some sleep cuz im spending tomorrow nights at kels so we can play barbies and stay up all night so we will sleep all day christmas eve day and it will go by faster.

i miss trevor.still. hes my favorite boy thats not austin johansen. (cuz that boys unbeatable. =])

kaitlin and brittany---i really need to give you guys your christmas presents. really really realllllllly need to.

right. oh, and i love you guys. im in that kind of mood where i gotta say it.

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[Tuesday
December 21st, 2004
7:02pm
]
[ mood | grumpy ]

-I AM: myself 

-I HATE: bad feelings
-I MISS: trevor and wesley and mike
-I FEAR: so much
-I HEAR: blackheart valentine pill-northstar
-I WONDER: how to fly
-I LOVE: love?
-I ALWAYS: blink
-I AM NOT: my parents
-I DANCE: with boys and girls
-I SING: along to music
-I CRY: .
-I AM ALWAYS: thinking. ALWAYS.
-I WRITE: a bunch
-I CONFUSE: me
-I NEED: help
-I SHOULD NOT: lie 

YES OR NO
-you keep a diary: yes
-you like to cook: yes
-you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yes
-are you in love: no
-you set your watch a few minutes ahead: i dont know. all the clocks in my house have different times.
-you bite your fingernails: yes
-you believe in love: yes

WHO IS...?
-the weirdest person you know: ummm...stupid question
-the loudest person you know: jessie
-your close friends: austin, kellie, carlie, brittany, lucie, kaitlin, i think.
-the person that knows the most about you: austin
-your crush: myles/julian
-most boring teacher: i dont know. im getting new ones

DO YOU...?
-have crush(es): yes
-want to get married: yes
-have any tattoos/where: nah
-piercings/where: ears
-get motion sickness: on planes sometimes
-think you're a health freak: no
-get along with your parents: no
-like thunderstorms: not close ones


( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU... )
-CRIED: yes (i was trying to brush the knots out of my hair. for real.)
-HELPED SOMEONE: yes
-BOUGHT SOMETHING: no
-GOTTEN SICK: not physically
-GONE TO THE MOVIES: no
-GONE OUT FOR DINNER: no
-SAID "I LOVE YOU": no?
-WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: no
-TALKED TO AN EX: yes
-MISSED AN EX: yes
-WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL: yes
-TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON: no
-HAD A SERIOUS TALK: no
-MISSED SOMEONE: yes
-HUGGED SOMEONE: yes
-FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS: yes
-FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND: no

WOULD YOU EVER...?
1. Eat a bug? yes
2. Bungee jump? yes
3. Hang glide? yes
4. Kill someone? No. never, how could you live with yourself knowing you ended someones life?
8. Parachute from a plane? yes
9.Walk on hot coals? yes
10. Go out with someone for their looks? no
11. for their reputation? no
12. Be a vegetarian? yes
13. Wear plaid with stripes? yes
15. Sing karaoke? yes
16. Get drunk? No.
17. Shoplift? no
18. Run a red light? yes
20. Dye your hair blue? yes
21. Be on Survivor? yes
22. Wear makeup in public? yes
23. Go all night without sleep? yes
24. work for beer? No.
25. Make someone cry? yes
26. Call your math teacher a bad name? yes
28. Date someone more than 10 years older than you? no
29. Cuss out a priest? yes
30. Take a job as a janitor? yes
32. Stay up all through the night? yes
33. Drink straight espresso? already do

ONE LAST QUESTION
If you found out you only had 3 weeks to live, what would you do? have sex, get married, go to italy and australia and india, skydive, kiss every hott boy i meet

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[Tuesday
December 14th, 2004
4:42pm
]
[ mood | fineish. no biggie. ]

hey guys--i dont feel like updating cuz i got ants in my pants but i just hotught you should know, trev and i broke up, but it was no big deal really. it was a mutual thing. were not going to see each other for like 6months to a year so we decided to just be fwb and hookup when we see each other. no hard feelings. mmk. later gators.

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[Monday
December 13th, 2004
6:35pm
]
[ mood | crappy ]

hey guys--my head is killing me. it hurts sooo bad. ugh. i have headaches like these EVERY fucking day after school. its probably cuz i need glasses but my mom keeps forgetting to make an optomitrist(not even close right?) appt. w/e. anyways--nothing really good or bad happened at school today. it was pretty stupid. and everyone seemed really out of it, like distant and such. maybe everyones emotional bio-rhtyms (butchered that one too) were off. mine were, and all of them were right today. kool. they were off a few days ago but theyre bak in sync now. kellies stalker came back. she got really freaked out cuz a motorcycle and a car came and left and than the guy on the motorcycle came back in a car. kellie had to call the police but the guy left. creeeeeepy. im sure you guys will hear allllll about it tomorrow so dont bombard me with questions juuuust yet. ok--im helping wesley (from my first cruise) make a lj so i gotta get back to him. and i gotta finish making cookies, and start studying, etc, etc. later gators--

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[Sunday
December 12th, 2004
5:06pm
]
[ mood | tired. and hungry. and saddish ]

hey guys----im soo tired right now. im like about to fall asleep on the keyboard. im thinkin ill go lay down after i type this up.

so right--districts was pretty fucking amazing. doorkeeping  sucked but it was still really kool. especially the fact that lucie and i got superiors. way to go partner.

also--julian and alex---i feel like such a shitty friend cuz i never got to see miracle. i was gonna go today, but my mom was being bitchy and was just like, no, i dont want to have to take you, blah, blah. it was retarded. but im sure you guys raised the roof over at players by the sea. and congrats on your superiors guys (you too b but i told you a million times already. =] )

anyways---so guys, if im getting you presents im probably going to bring them to you during the break, because so far i only have like twenty something dollars for gifts and i need like...156741313.24430.65. ya. so ill have to come visit you and be all gift-bearing and such..

my heads going crazy inside guys.

ok---im gonna go get something to eat and than like go to sleep or something. w/e. maybe ill talk to my two new knots ( hey kaitlin--they have names--lloyd and gerry. haha) later gators.

right--and ps-who has the motion city soundtrack cd?

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[Friday
December 10th, 2004
10:58pm
]
[ mood | bad. ]

oh snap guys. im so stupid. gosh. my days been totally wacko. h/o lemme check my biorhtyms--nope, was wrong. i thought my emotional would be critical but apparently i was on an emotional high today and didnt have a problem with people at all. v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v. untrue. a hell of a lot of people pissed me off today. and the only time i really had a good time was 5/6. which was crazzzyy. gosh. caleb and kyle are total retards. but good retards. and theyre crazy funny too. gosh. it was great. especially when kyle wrote on my back. that was great when i tried to see it. and caleb kept trying to get me to sit on his lap saying that trevor would never know about it buuuuuuuuut i didnt. (how good of me.) but im gonna miss that class soooo much next semester. gosh, you guys have no idea. next semesters gonna be hell. im gonna fail something probably. gosh----

right. so 1,2,3,and 4 all sucked. and lunch. and before. and the bus. and inbetween 4 and 5 when i got hit in the face and couldnt stop crying. gosh. that sucked. (funny thing was, i had just talked to carlie about how i was having such a shitty day and i just wanted to cry. guess i got to in the sense of it.)

ok. and austin--im sick about fighting for my beliefs of gay people nd marriages. it just makes me mad at you, and mad at myself. im not gonna change what i believe in and im sick of having to think so much before i talk to you, or comment and i always feel mean afterwards. im not sorry for what i believe in, but i got really snappy at you a lot so sorry bout that. i hate fighting with you about anything.

ok. carlies still not here, and i have only heard from her mom like 15 minutes ago and she should call me soon, if she gets back. the kids parents are stilllll not home. the bastards. ok, im sick of being fun. or funny. and just like everything. i wish i was someone else sometimes. or like someone switched my brain. or like probed it so its not so fucking retarded anymore. later guys.

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[Thursday
December 9th, 2004
7:22pm
]

a lot of people suck. a lot of the time.

 

 

thats my day.

edit---but than again, as julian has oh so cleverly pointed out; a lot of people are really awesome (especially when youre done with the whole pissed at the world thing)
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[Wednesday
December 8th, 2004
10:51pm
]
[ mood | dead serious ]

hey guys---this is for real right here. go read 'after' by francine prose asap. all of you guys, not just the ones taht like to read. i cant even like express how important it is for like every kid in the world to read this book. totally not even kidding. like if you could see my face right now, youd see just how serious i was. now go get it at the libary. or place it on hold at the website, www.sjcpls.org

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[Tuesday
December 7th, 2004
3:49pm
]
[ mood | poopish. ]

hey guys. i realized on the bus ride home today that im like crazy. for real. like i know ive always been a tidge bit...off but i really think im like a clinical case. like if someone who didnt know me at all and they worked with loony people and they saw inside me head, id be in an institution in a heartbeat. like some of the things i do are really stupid and pointless but i do them anyways. like, ok. i do this thing where in my head i have like conversations with people all the time. and this isnt like a fantasy thing either where i imagine brentice not being gay and falling in love with me(not that he is, but its kinda likely.) this is like everyday stuff ecept just more. like, ok, if lets say kellie will say something about olivia humbarger i might go off and think about how olivia and i had a falling out. than i might think, what if kellie and i had a falling out right now? and than ill have a whole fight thing in my head. than ill tell myself that there is no way that thatll ever happen just that way, but than ill be like, but what if this happens instead, and off i go. and i do this ALLLLLL the time guys. not just every once and a while. i mean like constantly. and thats just one thing. im just so messed up guys. its crazy. but whatever.

anyways--

i miss trevor hugely much guys. like crazzzzzyy amounts. this whole long-distance thing sucksssss so bad. like today for example. i was feeling pretty crappy and i wanted a hug so bad. not just like a, aww shelle that sucks hug. but a real boy hug. one thats like, i really care about you and i feel for you and im sorry, sorta hug. i know that im stupid and crazy but its the truth. i cant even like tell you how many times i wish that i was there, or trevor was here. its like around 46546549800014863 times per second. =[[[[[[

right- so im hungry. later.

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